Ok. Being very honest here...
The stress of getting the house done and moving, handling it all myself, trying very hard to not mess everything up, having gotten used to the idea of it as now and moving forward then having it halt and be back at square one, work worries, worries about daughters, the former,concern for a someone and a sincere wish I could set up a table top care center for him, some stuff...well, tonight it's hit me hard. My head is spinning again and I'm dizzy. Ok. I'm flatout scared.
Please, universe. Don't let me f it all up.
Please.

well

Nutshell.
Work was crazy.
Sale fell through, actual note written in agents box says it's due to buyers being crazy.
Darn.
It's ok, I saw pretty clearly what I need to do to get us out of here, now I have a bit more time.
Liquidated some assets for that purpose.
Kid is headed off to warp tour tomorrow.
Other kid ended a job today, starts next one in a wk.
Had to contact former spouse.
Got dizzy. Feeling better now.
Miss someone.

The one that works

This song, it's a motivator for me. I'm not a fighter against anyone except myself, against anything except my own discouragement, my hesitation at the moment of movement.
Walk into it.
Grab firmly, no tenativity.
Make it be.

Lose Yourself by Eminem | Eminem: http://youtu.be/xFYQQPAOz7Y

Depeche Mode - John the Revelator (Music Video) (…: http://youtu.be/752Gev1guKw

Summer begins in 2 hours.

There's a house showing.

There's been a sadness.

There is a potential misunderstanding.

There is the dilemma of fix it or not.

True

A lesson learned long ago.

Wow

Will Someone Ever Look At Me That Way? - Audra Mc…: http://youtu.be/wKT2EzcEKvY

onward ever

Fears, worries. Lord, they've wreaked havoc in me the past few days, confusing me to the point of not knowing what was right in front of me. I don't like myself when this happens. I feel like the proverbial train wreck. But it's possible to grab hold of a runaway engine, I've learned that, find the places where you can turn the track, just a little, make the momentum slow. Yesterday was about many of those tiny turns, and holding a dear friend's hand in her
difficult time.
Younger daughter is going to be fine.
Plans in place.
Confronting conversations had.
The house lists this week.
One step after another.
My composure broke, which I don't like. But even though it doesn't happen often, I suppose it's best to have it seen and either accepted or not.  Very grateful for that person, was a rock for me when I needed one. That means a lot.
Life goes on.