If anyone reads this blog, I'm letting you know that I will be closing it soon. I've been in the process of pulling some things off to save in my personal archives, but it's done.
Life changes.
Life is far from simple right now.
At the time I started this, it was an attempt to reach out of myself, looking for the rope of the safety donut to pull myself out of the water I was drowning in. And it helped. I worked through much in here over the years, learned a great deal, the biggest lesson of which was the reminder that the only person who can throw that rope out to me is...me.
But it's time to be done.
I've heard comments such as, this is fluff, it's drivel. This isn't socially relevant. No, it isn't. Not on a large scale. There ARE lessons in here for anyone with half a brain and a will to apply. But it was never meant to be for anyone else. I never had any grand scheme of changing the world, or anyone else, only myself. It was always meant for me to share myself with anyone who might have had an interest, especially myself.
I have nightmares. I dream every night. I have fears, fears that at times are so large I can feel myself choking on them. I have aspirations, I have goals. I want to be appreciated for who I am. I am human. If that isn't relevant to humanity, then humanity is no longer comprised of humans.
People. Are. Ridiculous.
Be your own authentic self, they exclaim. Just do it in a way that we approve of, they add.
Well, fuck you.
I'll be my own self, with or without your approval.
I'll be starting a new blog, and I'm sorry to be leaving this one on a slightly sour note.
I hope you've enjoyed the ride, maybe even gotten something out of this.
I did.
And really, that's all that matters.
